Yet another sleepless night

Or at least a night with very little sleep. I worked until midnight last night and it was past 1am by the time I finally fell asleep. L however did not sleep at all and woke me about around 5am and then again at about 6am at which point I got up. Here I am now tired and rather grumpy because of lack of sleep and L spending $20 on who knows what (since he says he doesn't remember). I knew he was going to 'get a snack and a drink' at the gas station but not that he would spend all of the money he had.

$20 generally isn't all that much but he has been having more and more issues with reigning in his spending lately. Even grocery shopping has become difficult again since he tends to run out before the next week's grocery budget begins.

In return he starts getting upset with himself over his inability to control this issue and his current 'solution' is to want to live on the street so that he is less of a burden on the family.

As for me, I am just exhausted. Running on not enough (restful) sleep, normal pregnancy third trimester tiredness during the day, a 4year-old that is anxiously awaiting Christmas and somewhat confused by her daddy's action are all starting to get to me.

I've been slacking

I know, I know. Last time I posted I promised to be more active just to fall off the wagon again. I have no excuse and I just want to apologize to all my readers.

Things around here have been difficult as was to be expected this time of the year. Afterall, it happens every year. A couple things are different though. I am pregnant and hence more hormonal which in return makes it more difficult to deal with some of the things going on.

The biggest difference though is that at now 4 years old our oldest is reacting much more to the changes than she has in the past. A blog post about just that should follow sometime next week.

We have dealt with an ER visit for L due to severe depression that resulted in nothing, trying to get him seen by a psychologist to see about getting his meds changed (his old one left the clinic where he is seen and they only have a temp filling in who is backlogged until late February). Not to mention normal family stuff like kids' activities, birthday parties for Miss K to go to, Thanksgiving, preschool for Miss K and my job and my volunteer position with the International Exchange Program.

I don't even remember if I ever updated on the Vegas trip I was supposed to go on. If not, that will be a post on it's own as well. I miss blogging but with so much going on I have just not found the time to sit down and write a thought out post.

So for now, I am back. And hopefully I'll be posting more regularly again. I have truly missed it and how it has helped me. Time to remember to do some self-care.