Friday, August 27, 2010

Waiting for what's next

Things have been going pretty well over the past few days but after this last difficult month I feel as if I am unable to really enjoy it for what it is. I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop. I think in a way I am afraid to truly enjoy it and get lost in the good times because I am worried to get disappointed again when things get worse again. And right now i feels more like a 'WHEN' things go wrong than an 'IF' things go wrong.

Feeling that way isn't fair to L or myself but at this point I am still worried about what happened this last month. It happens every time we go through an extended period of things being bad. At this point with everything so fresh in my memory I question anything and everything. And I know it shows.

These transition periods truly stink.

1 comment:

Anxious Kaley said...

I grew up in a house full of anxiety. My father was always angry for reasons I never understood. I know that waiting for the next shoe to drop feeling all too well. All you can do is enjoy what peace you have in between and hope it lasts as long as possible. I hope for you that it does! Keep going and being the strong person that you are!

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