Not me, L is feeling that way right now. When he told me last night my mind went back to the past few days to see if there were any other warning signs, any other symptoms I need to look out for. This one little sentence has put me into watch mode. From know until I feel we have reached the end of this episode I will be watching him like a hawk analyzing the smallest move he is making, anything he is saying and doing. All in the hope of stopping whatever might happen before it gets too bad.
While I am aware of what I am and will be doing a lot of this is going to happen at an unconscious level. I generally don't consciously decide in the moment something happens to analyze it. It is not until after or in the middle of it that I will realize what is going on.
I am glad that we have reached a stage where he can recognize and vocalize this feeling though before it gets too late. It helps me in trying to stop him from self-sabotaging his relationships with everyone. It is one of the reasons that he has been unable to find friends since we moved back to Alabama in late 2007. It has strained our relationship and his relationship with his daughters. I am thankful that we can talk about it now BEFORE it gets bad. It is a big step in the right direction.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
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