Thursday, April 8, 2010

Tough night without a whole lot of sleep

I am starting today rather sleep deprived. I went to bed late last night because the hubby asked me to stay up with him. It was 1:30am and I had to try to move a sleeping Miss K from our bed to her room. The first attempt was rather unsuccessful as I fell asleep on my bed right next to her. 10 minutes later I was woken up the first time by a hubby who reminded me to move her. It took me 15 minutes to get her settled and just as she finally fell asleep her little sister woke up... So it was past 2am when I finally got to lay down. It took me a while because hubby was having a rather fidgety night and would not lay still. I'm not sure when I finally fell asleep but I was woken up a few times by L because he 'wanted to talk'. He promised to watch the girls this morning so that I could sleep in. Yeah, did not happen. I was up at 8 after having a child in my bed who would not stop moving and who kept elbowing me.

This reminded me of our first few months after Luke got out of the Navy and before he was diagnosed properly. Miss K was only 10 months old at that time, we were living in a trailer in my grand-parents-in-laws backyard and completely financially. My in-laws were still very misinformed about mental health issues and very judgmental and just not understanding of all the things going on. They still had the 'Just get over it and you'll be fine' attitude.

But what really was a reminder last night was the no sleep. Luke went through a phase of insomnia and was put on Ambien. It was a living nightmare for us. Luke would take it at around 10pm and start acting very strangely. It did not make him fall asleep the way it is supposed to. Instead of laying down and sleeping, he would walk around the house, talk and eat and appear awake but have NO recollection of it the next morning. It would be 2 or 3 am by the time he'd finally be in bed and sleeping. However, because of all of this I had to stay up with him to make sure he didn't do anything dangerous. While on Ambien he had the craziest dreams that he would try to act out or at least talk out, like the time when he was sure he was charged with saving Pluto from exploding and saving it from an invading Army.

I stayed up until 2 or 3 am just to wake up at 6am the next morning with Miss K. There were so many times when I would take her into her room to play with her only for me to fall asleep on the floor from pure exhaustion. After 2 weeks of Ambien we finally stopped the medication. It still took a while for it to get out of his system. While it stopped some of his crazy dreams, it did not stop the late nights because by then he was going through his first manic phase which let to his first hospitalization in October of 2007. Looking back a lot of that time is only a hazy memory because I did not get a lot of sleep at all between taking care of Luke and taking care of Miss K.

Back to today, I now have a husband snoring away in the bedroom and two little girls who need me awake...


Heather said...

If there was something bigger than huge hugs, I would be sending them to you right now! We also had a sleepless night and I've put on many miles driving home to check on my husband due to an accident last night.

From one sleep deprived mama to another, I wish a refreshing nap for you or at least a more peaceful night tonight.

Kris said...

Thank you. I hope you'll be able to get some sleep as well and that your husband is well.

MommieDaze said...

Those are long nights, and even longer days when you're sleep deprived and taking care of kids. I hope you get some rest.

Kris said...

@MommieDaze I didn't get a nap but I made it through the day. lol

sallyo said...

I relate to the ambien problems! I hope you get some rest soon!

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