Friday, April 23, 2010

Need his new meds NOW

I need for L to get his new meds, for them to start working ASAP (one can dream, right?) and most importantly for his pain to go away. He is still in a lot of pain and the pain meds he got seem not to be helping at all. Add that on his normal meds that have left him feeling angry and irritable and you have the recipe for disaster.

Last night it got pretty bad for a bit. A lot of yelling from his side and tears from me. I was preoccupied with work and he took my absentminded answers as me being in a bad mood which 9 out of 10 times upsets him quiet a bit and tends to get him going. I hate situations like that. It was definitely a situation were I kept telling myself to remember the big picture aka 'He has mental health issues'. To be honest though, at the same time there is a part of me that wonders if I would stay if he was not having these problems? I very much doubt that I would be sticking around.

In the end, apologies were said and L went to bed. In times like this it is a huge relief. Just some alone time to try to relax after everything that happened and to be alone.

And as if all of this wasn't enough, we now think the pain he already had might have masked the pain from a UTI sooooo, off to the doctors it is again this morning. Maybe I should just set up camp there?

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